I am bleeding out from old wounds nobody sees
No comfort ever brings comfort to me
My broken mind and shattered heart
Have tried my whole life to tear me apart
feeling lost and lonely and scared
because none of my family ever cared
I was their burden - I was their shame
I was the one whom they couldn't speak the name
So they turned their backs to forget what they've done
They took the meaning from my life and thought that they won
As long as I am breathing I am living proof that they lost
As long as I keep going forward no matter the cost
I will let go and banish the demons they gave me
And let Christs' healing be what will save me
So I am not lost, though they led me astray
The blind leading blind - Well God gave me my sight today
So I could see clearly the webs of deceit
That bound my heart mind, hands and my feet
I can see through their whispered millions of lies
the part of me that perpetuates them - well today that part dies
I need to limit the voices circling in my mind
to shut out the hurtful - only hear what is kind
I need to hand over control to God - Who made me
I need to render spirit from flesh to set myself free
I will crucify the part of me that wants me dead
I will rise from those ashes and walk where angels have tread
I was created to be more than the sum of my trauma -The sum of the worlds endless lies  
When I come up on top - they will all be surprised
Healing takes time so I will take it slow
and soon I know the progress will show.