Spend hours upon hours (Upon hours) Analyzing space Or lack of time Brushing knots out of my thoughts Wondering why the shower head Can never keep heat Why I refuse to let myself sleep Like I deserve to ache Sit idle in my consciousness Mistake cats and long driveways For omens
Speak my own language Like yours but Complicated Feeling inconsistent as usual Sometimes my memories Can’t remember if they were dreams Can’t tell if this is Or what is one Not much to do But to avoid what must be done Life is like this Except less romantic
Is it my mind that Deceives itself like this
But isn’t that sickness
A series of realizations Usually in the morning Which tend to be more like evenings But I long to watch the sun rise Just to do it all over again
Learned that dawn doesn’t always look the same And the moon It sometimes calls my name It’s me who’s small Despite the stars Eventually I’ll sleep again