What do you do ...
When the illusion of intrusion
never seems to go away
When you have to fight off fantasies
of being gone today
When they won't stop no matter
how fervently you pray
When the delusions of anger and fears
Always get in your way
When they fight tooth and nail
Like they have a right to stay
The voices crowd your mind
Saying just come and play
But you know what's waiting for you
In thier demented game
So you do what you can
To shut them out and turn away
But they paint all your memories
In shades of black and grey
You just wish for a single moment
Where You  feel okay
And you want to cry every time
Someone asks how are you today
When your life's torn apart
Your mind lost in disarray
Then your trust seems to fade
While your hope begins to decay
When your heart feels like stone
And all you feel is dismay
Your sanity clings to threads
Your anxiety puts on a display
When you ask for a moment
Your mental repairs are underway
But really in your mind
your worst fears and memories are on replay
The anger bubbles up
And you want the world to pay
For what they took from you
But there's nothing left to say
You don't know how to articulate the pain
Or the thoughts you have to convey
So you don't feel so locked away
With the darkness that tells you
That its here to stay
You feel Your thoughts begin to fray
And your mind just saddles on you all of the blame and shame of a past you wish you could slay
Like a monster that seeks you out as its prey
I've learned it takes a lot of courage to say
I'm not well I need help I'm not okay