What most people call coping
To me is just dying slowly
I don't like the question "how are you"
I don't want to lie- but can't utter the truth

I lie with my smile
To forget for a while
How this truth is crushing me
How my past won't let me be

Sorrow darkens my door
Because I don't have you anymore
To lighten my heavy heart
Your absence tears me apart

I'm being ripped at the seams
Sifting through shattered dreams
I feel broken and tired
Lost cold and uninspired

I pray for guidance for my feet
I pray for a place to retreat
I pray for some divine relief
From all of the pain and the grief

Just a quiet moment in my mind
Solace from this world unkind
Take this from my soul so weary
Take the thoughts dark and dreary

Hanging tight to the end of my rope
Finding faith in the ashes of hope
A light far ahead in the dark
I only see a glint of a spark