I am empty The gut-wrenching feeling I have had these past few days as made it hard to breath
The endless self-doubt a constant reminder that I am not worthy of anything constant pain of walking on eggshells a constant hole in the heart from being bitten when trying to feed
I feel numb numb to emotion numb to pain numb to love
The pain is still raw the idea your actually gone still hurts even if I know it was the right choice
Maybe one day I will do the barn and coop maybe one day I won't feel pain when someone says your name maybe one day I'll remind myself what it is to be happy without putting on a fake smile maybe one day
one day you will become a memory but someone I will never forget one I am glad to have known despite the constant fights
it was always nice to have a friend when you needed it