I swim in search of sharks
and I lay down next to snakes
I watch as fires burn
and I beg the earth to quake
I long for that sweet release
and I look for an escape
So I drive too fast when roads are ice
and too slowly in front of trains
but not "too" enough for them to notice
that I'm acting ******* strange
I don't want to be a tragic suicide
I don't want that ******* fame
so I drive too close to semis
and I walk too close to roads
If there happens to be an accident
that means that nobody knows
how consciously I've tried to die
without acting on my own