You know those moments
When you realize
That you're not really appreciated,
Much less acknowledged?
Well, it's not the first time
That he's been unappreciative.
But I can't place my finger
On why this time it stung more.
I've had his birthday gift
Planned for months,
But his birthday
Is not for another month.
The only problem is
I have too many photos to burn,
Because I'm not sure
If we'll make it that far.
"I'm not his mom."
"I can't change him."
"So just leave him."
"But he broke last time."
So many questions,
Not enough answers.
So many doubts,
No one to reassure.