I wanna say the words
Even if it means getting rid of the sunshine erupting out of my soul,
It means I'll not feel like I'm bursting anymore,
Maybe I'll not even get those butterflies in my stomach.
But it also means it won't hurt so much
Because of how hard I feel it for you.
Can I say it?
Maybe not.
But someday, we'll find the courage to,
And I can't wait for that ********* day to hit us.
Mar 27, 2024
Mar 27, 2024 at 3:54 PM UTC
You know those moments
When you realize
That you're not really appreciated,
Much less acknowledged?
Well, it's not the first time
That he's been unappreciative.
But I can't place my finger
On why this time it stung more.
I've had his birthday gift
Planned for months,
But his birthday
Is not for another month.
The only problem is
I have too many photos to burn,
Because I'm not sure
If we'll make it that far.
"I'm not his mom."
"I can't change him."
"So just leave him."
"But he broke last time."
So many questions,
Not enough answers.
So many doubts,
No one to reassure.
Mar 14, 2023
Mar 14, 2023 at 2:56 AM UTC
I want to move on
From all my past mistakes;
And I’ll do it even if
It puts my life on stake.
I want to let go of
All my emotions for once;
And this time if anyone see me,
I’m not gonna wince.
All I want to do,
Is be me for a change.
Because holding myself back-
Life feels like a cage.
I do not ask for help, only acceptance.
Give me all you got, I’m holding my stance.
Mar 10, 2022
Mar 10, 2022 at 10:55 AM UTC
even when you try your best,
in the end, you're still not good enough.
Jan 6, 2022
Jan 6, 2022 at 11:14 AM UTC
As soon as I saw you,
I knew that looking at you,
And talking to you
Would not be enough.
When you touched my hand,
I felt electricity run through my veins.
When I hugged you,
Even you felt my heartbeat race.
With your arm around me,
I knew nothing in the whole world could hurt me.
Hold my hand forever, muffin;
I don't think I can live without this warm feeling anymore...
Nov 17, 2021
Nov 17, 2021 at 1:49 PM UTC
You say you're flawed and you're scared I'll leave you;
But I'm not perfect either, honey and I swear I love every single part of you.
The part of you that tells me your experiences,
The part of you that's goofy all the time,
The part of you that's vulnerable and opens up to me,
The part of you that's a baby and needs constant reassurance,
The part of you that's mature and has meaningful conversations with me,
The part of you that's lustful all the time,
The part of you that makes me feel confident,
The part of you that makes me smile,
The part of you that doubts yourself,
And even the part of you that needs reminders that I'm not out of your league.
I swear I love each and every part of you,
And I swear I'm not leaving you so easily.
Oct 23, 2021
Oct 23, 2021 at 3:41 PM UTC
Inhale
Make up your mind
You know it's wrong
Leave them on seen
Delete the chats
It was always one sided
You know it now
You always knew it
Delete your thoughts about them
Delete them from your life
Feel the relief
Exhale
Sep 3, 2021
Sep 3, 2021 at 6:33 AM UTC
How lightly we take the word 'love',
How empty it sounds...
Jul 8, 2021
Jul 8, 2021 at 2:33 AM UTC
If the elements be so kind and generous,
It may survive and thrive in the mud.
It owes its family its flesh,
And to others it surrenders its beauty.
Its fragrance is but a respite on a gloomy day,
And its nectar is but food to the ones who depend on it.
Its home is edible for its predators,
And its purpose is to spread its pollen by gifting away its mere essence.
It gives and gives in the hope of receiving,
Yet it wallows in its loneliness for it has no one to call its own.
A foe it has never hurt may pierce its soul one day,
Or an enemy it has never met may pluck it and render it lifeless.
It has never hurt a fly for it is an embodiment of love,
Beautiful and strong yet tarnished its soul, it stands still as if waiting;
Waiting for the day it will wither and fade into oblivion.
I wonder if I am but a flower...
Jul 8, 2021
Jul 8, 2021 at 1:57 AM UTC