Today is family day here
and although
I know that
I am
better off
without them.
The pain still aches inside
so much so
I feel despair
and deep sadness.
It looms over my head everyday
the only escape I get
is in my dreams
or in my art maybe...
I don't know it feels so lonely
to be different
and so painful
that this is what I chose
for this life
I know that there are good things too
but sometimes the pain gets too much ,
so I write instead.
Hoping to ease some of it
and to make art and some meaning from it too..
for what else can one do
when one feels despair and sadness.