This is the poem where I appear ecstatic
only to distract you from the truth
trying to keep my head clear but still there's static
trying to bring back my youth

This is the poem where I tell you I'm fine
but I'm lying, I'm down on my knees
begging please to the highest power above
that I'm relived from this hell & grant me love

This is the poem where I tell you I've won
the battle with my demons but I still hold the plug
in hand, just waiting for the moment to say F**k it,
take the head jack & unplug it

This is the poem where I tell you I'll be okay
when in fact, I won't be & I give my ending a delay
cause although I want it to end, the guilt kills me
of making my family bury me but I hope they forgive me