she is not the person you want
she will never be
even less so what you need
or think you need at least
she is chaos
just like you
don't fool yourself though
two negatives don't cancel each other out

your jokes make her laugh, happy as can be
a moment of plain thought passes
they drive her up the roof
you want too much
she can't give it to you
you expact too much
she shys away from you
you tell her to do what she wants
but she doesn't understand the meaning of those words
she feels duty and responsibility
not just to herself

she cries, changes her mind, all smiles
while you talk like there is no tomorrow
you think she is upset
when really there are just a million thoughts behind her eyes racing one another, nowhere to go, nowhere to be, nowhere to hide
she cannot be nice to you
don't you understand?
she cannot be kind to you
don't you get why?
you want it all from her
but she can only give you pieces, small and broken
there is no whole left to give