erase your manic thoughts
leave the ones that keep you guessing
15 unread messages
count how many objectify you
stare at the same photos
watch them change over the hours
are you there?
have you fallen back into old habits?
you still rely on physical touch
expecting a hand to hold yours is the cure

read your thoughts again
1am manic thoughts
delete the panicked desperation
25 unread messages
count how many you’ll ignore
stare at the same wall
watch it while tears fall
are you still there?
has anything changed?
you expect company to fulfill your needs
when you’re terrified of the unknown

pull an all nighter
all the thoughts are complied
we don’t know
delete the messages
don’t bother to read anymore
stare at the sky
bring the tar back in your lungs
are you always going to be there?
are you put together?
find your own peace
make your own company
proceed in your manic decisions
wait until you can love yourself
maybe someone will love you the same