Breathe in
Breathe out
Slowly
But my pace is fast
Feel the world closing in on me;

My voice feels frozen inside of me
As if i can't speak up
As if noone cares about how I feel.

I feel frozen inside
Recalling past memories of abuse
And how much it hurts inside
Of how most of the men
Hurt me violated me
Shamed me abused me
And treated me so so badly
How the women treated me like SH*T
And how hurt I am and feel
Like a broken doll
Used like a fuze
Wound so tight
It feels broken
Without use
That's how I feel
And how I have felt for so long!

Feels scary
To work on choosing differently for my life
To work on cutting out those and what no longer
Serves me
Or my highest good

FEELS
scary but exciting
for this is how to truly be alive!