You were my lover and my best friend, Why did it even have to end. I loved you with all my heart, But then it all fell apart. Maybe it was just fate, I thought you were my soulmate. I made many mistakes, Why do I have to be so fake. I wish I could have been strong, I was so, so wrong. Why is it hard for me to lust, And even harder for me to trust. Why do I keep everything bottled up inside, Maybe I should just run away and hide. Why can't I find a place to belong, Is that so wrong. I wish I didn't have to be here, But my children need me near. I want them to know, That I love them so. I hate who I am and what I've become, Why must I think of myself as ugly, fat, and dumb. Why couldn't I be someone else, I should be by myself. Why? Why? Why? Who the HELL am I!! Why do I have to be, ME!!!