i wasn't the reason to make you stay
no matter how much i want to be
drag your life out one more day
i knew it was quite selfish of me.

yet i asked and i begged
promises fall deaf on your ears
with you gone i would be dead
no meaning in carrying out years.

you were afraid to meet my eyes
to give yourself away
of your plan that underlies
that stone expressioned face.

but your plan would soon unfold
soon that i found out
when almost a month ago
i found your body on the ground.

the needle in your hand
right where it belongs
your one and only friend
that stalked you all along.

this pain does not go away
and i'm afraid i'm on the verge of tears
but i've always been this way
now that you're not here.

they tell me i'll soon heal
and life will continue to go on
but this agony i have to deal
will simply never be gone.

and you did this.
you single handily murdered me.
and I can't forgive you.