I dont recall, the exact tones of your voice or the way you walked, words that fell from your crooked smile
but i remember...
running to you as a child anticipating the warmth of your so frequently absent embrace in the times you would decide i was worth a day in your life
i don't recall your voice or your fingers sliding down fretboards conjuring sweet melodies out of thin air
but i remember...
the day she told me you were gone, forever not her exact words, but i still know how it felt, the first time my heart ruptured despite its protective bony casing
i remember the sky purple and bruised threatening to overflow i recall thinking, it must be mourning you too only seven years old, but by then even i knew
there was no life to be found within that casket that you'd wasted away for one last fix, and you'd had it which was always of paramount importance clearly.
i dont remember the days that followed but i do recall how it made me flinch your cold dead skin against my palm embalmed and blue despite these things, i kissed you
goodbye one last time
no more melodies, no more embraces only the one sided feel of my lips pressed against your sullen face with no luster left in your eyes no, now more akin with black holes in the sky
a single rose falls from six feet above my final offering as dirt engulfs, snuffs out the flame i forgive you, daddy.