i am this close to vomiting my classic impoverished american upbringing all over this classic impoverished american room
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poemform bodygenre
nobody understands masochism
hands or deep water
they will say they do don’t listen
[diptych]
i the women in my fiction are always taking off their shoes
ii how strange to find a chick in a frying pan how strange to find two
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(“spider goddess, needle boy”)
really god are we all just your love letters to the universe
the ****
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[who is forgiveness for]
man who took a belt to your four year old face
sends you a birthday card every year
still spells your name wrong you wonder when he’ll die
you know what you’ll bring to his grave
[my grandmother said she saw jesus]
so, what does someone do with a stolen ******?
fire, maybe?
and then further back
but not really
that far?
there must have been so much fire when jesus
got here.
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from
[sleep studies/ or dogs for metaphorical rapture]
braced against a demon like the last tree on a flooded plane
the dream changes
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god isn’t in the dreams, but that’s because god is the dreams. if that doesn’t make sense it’s because i’m a waitress. anyway, chaos. but, also not so much chaos. math, migratory patterns, circadian rhythms, menstrual cycles, lunar phases. god. can’t get it out of my head. i need to sleep. i sleep so much. sleep is the last thing i do. wake up tired. where did you go last night. what did you do