God,
I'm so tired of being alone,
so tired of being lonely.
I cannot make friends with myself because I would never be friends with myself.
Do I change into who I want to be?
Do I accept who you made me to be?
It is sacrilegious to say your design is flawed
so reflection may disprove you are real.
Reflection does disprove you are real.
I never believed you were real.
I am only praying because I need someone to listen,
I am so lonely I've turned to god.


This feels like psychosis.