Late at night dressed for funeral knowing you were never coming,
Laughing hysterically as you say you can’t.
Now let me tell you something about being able to.

Self made self proclaimed alcoholic thanks babe
I used to need hoping, then I needed loving.
**** that I need saving
Need saving but you don’t care about me drowning, keep swimming
I’ve done this before and I’ll do it again.

Straight chugging ***** drowning on the coldness,
Self medicating the self induced pain,
Admit it wasn’t your fault, it was mine for thinking you’d be different

Downed every bottle I’m seeing different
Downed jealousy ily be different
Downed myself thought you were different.

You were my first everything but you too worried about whose first I was
Pretty lips, luscious hair, **** I’m imprisoned.

Three handles didn’t help forget you, just reminded me even more
Phone in my hand, thumbs dancing, handle charged and piece loaded.

Prove me you’re different, 20 shots through my brain ain’t feeling.
Show me I’m different, pills in my system ain’t feeling.
Make this different, love in my heart I’m feeling.

It’s one am and I’m still wasting my time **** drinking.
It’s two am and I’m still chasing you ******* feelings.
It’s three am and I’m still alone in bed **** living.