Letting go means not keeping score even of the actions you adore.
But what about this thing that I did Surely I cannot keep that hid.
I was wronged by this and that So surely I can refer to *** for tat.
My list of wrongs is great and clear and should be tallied and appear.
But no, you gotta let that **** go Karma does not read blow by blow
A need to calculate the debts owed you Will weigh one down anew.
The world will not care that years ago You was wronged and can't let go.
(To be fair, I've still got a list, Of the wrongs that still persist).
But that I know this is wrong is halfway to truth - gong!
Clinging to what I think should be (As Buddha pointed out to me)
Is the root of suffering and pain As I revisit my wrongs with no gain.
So I'll put the "facts" in a box of woe, And set it aside when I really know.
That carrying that box of pain, Is not worth any gain.
My grievances are over there And not something I wear.
Someday I'll really ken that pain cannot be fixed when I complain.
For now my pile is over there Set aside often outside my aware.
I will declutter and toss the trash when I get off my lazy ***.
For now I to know this But living this will lead to bliss.
Someday. Soon.
So, yeah, I'm complaining that I cannot tell "my side of the story" when I feel wronged. **** that's tough. I know it's wrong because there really is no universal tribunal that would look at my life and say, yes, on the whole you were more right than wrong. But we all want one, right? Just got to let it go and remember we're all in the same boat.