The cigarettes burn a hole
Right through my soul
But the feeling makes me know I'm alive
It reminds me of how I survived

I relive how I suffered every day
The living nightmares never go away
I never get a break from the thoughts in my head
Don't mourn me when I am finally dead

The grave is not something I fear
I will greet death as a friend so dear
Don't cry for me when I go home
I will be free from the pain I've always known

I am not eager to leave this life behind
I will go when it's the time that's assigned
Don't get the wrong idea - I don't want to die
I just want to live for more than to cry

I know that I'm blessed with each breath that I take
I should be thankful for each love and each ache
I grow so tired of the taste of sorrow
But I know it builds strength for tomorrow

I know there will eventually be rest
From the pain I carry in my chest
I know deep down where my home is
I know I can find peace, for I am His