New sores open like pores over my once perfect skin
The pressure in my head is building up yet again
As the cancer eats away I'm forced to contemplate the end
I guess in death I'll find out if I have any friends
It hurts me to say it but god I'm so scared
They say don't give up hope but I'm just not prepared
Soon I will be just a shadow of my former unimpressive self
As it eats away the marrow and turns my body against itself
When its over I hope you don't realize I'm gone
I hope the little things I did will somehow carry on
There might be reminders of who I was in clouds and in songs
Though I think everyone will be too busy living to listen
Every night I lay down now I lay down to die
Sometimes for a moment, just briefly, I shed a tear and cry
And wish I believed in something high in the sky
But like most things I've found out that heaven is a lie
So in all truth, yes, I am scared of the end
I am in no way prepared for the end
But the tumor is growing, so I'll send my love while I can
To all of you, everyone, incase I don't wake up again