i feel alone alone as in being self destructive in a way i've never felt before disconnected from the world around me and from so many others i thought i was so close with not socially but mentally but the metal mindset has a deeper understanding with the understanding of another with connecting and disconnecting with that can not always bring a warning along i knew that Maybe it was the way i thought about things and the way how we were so different you were so enthusiastic and happy had a shield as a smile and always so bubbly i was the sad one always the one over thinking everything in the corners hearing people screaming my names but shaking my head nodding saying i'm fine excusing myself EVERY ******* CHANCE I GOT never really knew what to expect and i became anxious still am shaky at times when i cant figure myself out when i don't know where i'm going or where i should be i break down i think about all the time i've spent alone and say **** it i've spent this much time alone i don't need anyone else