i feel alone
alone as in being self destructive in a way i've never felt before
disconnected from the world around me and from so many others i thought i was so close with
not socially but mentally
but the metal mindset has a deeper understanding with the understanding of another with connecting and disconnecting with that can not always bring a warning along
i knew that
Maybe it was the way i thought about things and the way how we were so different
you were so enthusiastic and happy
had a shield as a smile and always so bubbly
i was the sad one
always the one over thinking everything in the corners
hearing people screaming my names but shaking my head
nodding saying i'm fine
excusing myself EVERY ******* CHANCE I GOT
never really knew what to expect
and i became anxious
still am
shaky at times
when i cant figure myself out
when i don't know where i'm going or where i should be
i break down
i think about all the time i've spent alone
and say **** it
i've spent this much time alone
i don't need anyone else