I need to be honest now, even it will bring me to hell,
I feel guilty, I am guilty of many things, in detail I will not tell,
I stolen and wasted so much money, resources, relationships and many more,
I need to be honest, I surrender jail me, **** me it's better, can't stand this guilt anymore,

I have the right to remain silent but I choose not,
Have mercy just jail me, I have friends there a lot, I did not forgot,
From my heart I say this I'm sorry but you don't have to forgive me,
I need to face my sentence I'll accept it wholeheartedly,

Forgive my words or how I speak I don't know if I'm insensitive,
I ask again for forgiveness but I don't deserve it, you don't need to forgive,
Maybe this is my last written work I'm afraid now what to say,
Cause I'm lost in my direction, I'm lost in my way, maybe I'll mess it up anyway,

I know many try to help me but I'm too late to see,
Now I realize I was full of myself acting high and mighty,
I need to be honest, I need to face my sentence, I feel afraid also, give me a little mercy,
I act high and mighty, but in reality I'm just full of self pity,

I need to be honest, need now to face TRUTH and reality,
To the Guru my guru who teach me many wisdom forgive me, I wasted it all,
To the woman far away in love may it be childish or not I really fall,
I'm sorry, don't need to forgive me, or have pity,

You can make me your slave or your puppet, if in that way I can repay,
Cause many times many of YOU helped me but I still betray,
Forgive me I can only express in writting here,
Cause if we meet in person I know in YOU I fear,

Yes I have experience lost, sadness, and suffering but I have no excuse,
Love, happiness, friendship was there also but I wasted it, I abuse,
I'm just here waiting don't know what to say or do,
I need to be honest and live or die to be true.