I don’t want to compete
Over choices I make in my life
I don’t like to be compared
Or told you are right.

"I made the best choice"
As if there is only one-way.
Life isn’t black and white
But filled with shades of grey.

Clueless to my feelings
You have trouble seeing
The grand scheme and big picture of things.
How this moment you suspended is not worth dwelling.

Nobody is perfect, and that includes you.
I thought we were better then this
Consider what we've been through.

The words you speak, cut me deep
And the tears that fall down my cheek
I’m embarrassed to wipe clean.
I bite my quivering lip
And tilt my chin to the sky
face flushed red, forced to swallow my pride.

The people who love me don’t push me this hard.
And It's a full time job
to quite that voice which judges me.
It's painful when you
so seemingly and easily quite blantenly destroy me.
Take responsibility to the gravity of your words.
Be mindful that I am not you
or what you are.

You are not better than me.
there are not points or need to keep score
Don’t point out the things I did wrong
Just to make yourself feel better.

You can be honest with me
I welcome the truth
But things are heard better
When you’re not being bitter.

Friends aren't police
to punish the choices I make.
Never once have I compromised your values or trust.
I need support and a steady guide
I'll admit we are different, but entirely the same
no one to blame or to be ashamed.
I am only me
not who you want me to be.
accept it or leave.