I came back upstairs to be near you again, to finish working,

but I just felt bad, reminded of the past mistakes and the lies that I uncovered: it's the lies. the continuous lying, the faking, the pretending, the big lying, that hurts. i saw you as an honest man, a man who told the truth. and i thought you were cuz you could say mean things, i thought it was the cold hard truth but you lied out of fear, like a coward. i thought you were honest.

now i have to recollect the pieces, help us move forward. day by day. maybe another sleepless night for me.