Chest tight
Heart racing
Breath shallow
Always the same
Crashing waves of thought
A sea of hysteria
Paranoia
Regret
Shame
Swirling dark waters
Drowning who I want to be
Plunging me deeper
Surely to be washed up
On some shore with waning waters
Stranded
Spit out among the rocks
Bleeding and battered
Terrified of living
Alone
Forced to wait
For the rising tides
Again