Love has no meaning without your hands on my body.
Your perfect lips kissing me all over.
Your body on mine, weighting me down.
Together breathing harshly.
Moaning in loves bliss.
Me, always wanting more then I should want too.  
Just being ourselves in between thin sheets.

How could just one chance change me, into this monster that I now call myself?

My demented mind hungers for that same moment all the time.
But it's hunger over takes me, making me crash.
Making me fall for you again.
I just can't win this war that I have created.
This heart that I call home is now gone.
Tied down and beaten over and over every time I think of you.

Quietly I cry for you every night, wanting you to hold on to me telling me it will be okay.
Telling me a story or singing me a little lullaby.
Just making me feel a little safe from my ****** life.

I soon see other people...
Every time I see the other persons face think of you.

Your dark hair, your dark brown eyes.
Those perfect lips.
But soon I realize that's it's just a playful trick in my mind.
It hurts though, how I want you but can't have you.

I am sick of dreaming of how we meet.
It's plays in my mind over multiple times while in slumber.
It's driving me insane, making me crazy...
More and more everyday.

I JUST WANT IT TO STOP!!!

Please make it stop...