I hate you so much.

I hate you I swear I hate you.

I hate you for your double standards and your venomous outbursts,

I hate you for the way that you made me feel so whole,

I hate you for your dark curls and your subtle lisp,

I hate you for the days you made my life a movie,

For the days you made my life feel small and unimportant,

For the pedestal I drug around for you,

For your soft skin and loving eyes,

I hate you for the way everyone likes you effortlessly,

I hate you for how you left me,

I hate you.

I hate you so much it hurts me.

I hate you so much for making me hate you.

I hate you for the days I cried at the thought of us as old people, still by each others side,

I hate you for the days you made me feel so special,

I hate you for every beautiful second of those 7 years.

I hate you and I hope that you're living well, sleeping well, eating well. I hope you're loved. I know you are.