I try to do little things for myself,
Take a few liberties to try and break through the barrier between being alive and living my life.
I read books and take walks, I have beers and write poems.
    I enjoy those things but sometimes its not enough to break through that barrier. Sometimes I'm just here. My first weekend back home my brother took us tubing on the lake. Its kind of weird to think but sometimes that's what life feels like. Like everyone's on a boat and I'm behind it on a raft holding on for dear life. Mostly I'm good though, I always enjoyed tubing.