Do you ever just try and give up on taking that hard, tasteless candy that controls your mind You want to stop just to see if you can control yourself with nothing stabilizing your insides But then those withdrawals of being calm; To feel life again, & not to be numb But then you know its fake; The good behaviour, & no more mistakes The anxiety; gone, the moodswings went calm The self conscious had been forgotten about, & no more of the addiction to self-harm Those worries within, & those darkest fears No more love for being alone, & no more nightmares I saw what that tasteless candy can do It made me change, & unlocked my room The mind has been ruined, tortured & abused The heart has been broken, thrown around, & used Even though the high milligrams corrected my mind I wasn’t the one who actually changed myself inside