Up all night
You sleep so deep
The tension never fades

How alone
Can one person be
With the choices they have made

It persists
My fear of growing old
Never reaping what I sow

I’m painfully
Aware of how
I give high and get low

We’re touching
but the distance between
Us widens every day

A deep cavern
Or an endless trench
That keeps me lost at bay

Alone
While in your presence
It’s a special kind of shame

A sick feeling
Forever lingers
As I’m swallowed up in flames

I burn
For you to want me
I resent that your fire has cooled

I twist
And mold myself
For you but haven’t got you fooled

I tell myself
I’ll leave one day
Just an empty threat I make

But I find a
calmness in my lie
That helps me not to break

You see
I choose your cold winter
Over another’s spring and heat

I’ve made
A home in this fiery pit
And I don’t intend to leave