the stitchery of the past lifts off and circles like Angeles the crown of my head I follow the morning and I peek into a 9:00 am mass to listen to prayers. I try to find my grandmother so I look at the same row she would sit in. In a different city, in a different church, in another bench but instinctively look at the third row on the right. There is an other women bowing like the others as the priest cues with his words. She is not my grandmother. They are not my grandmothers but they are someone elseโs If I had opened my eyes here on a hilll in Haebangchon as did my dear friend 15 years my senior Then one of them might know my name but they smile as if they do