A personal experience
Did get my deliverance
Not until after going the distance
With abuse of substance

Never had a drink
Till i was 20
None offered it to me
Peer pressure no logic

Wanted to encounter
To know what it feels like
An inebriated state of condition
Where you loose your inhibitions

Not to feel left out
In the midst of those who passed out
Occurrences in the high far out
Demons of addiction taking  steps  out

Unaware of my character
Addiction or Abstinence its main feature
Galloped on the track of dependence
To a future awaiting to be spent in repentance

Craving for more and more
Liquor bottles more at my door
Than at the store
Nothing else i remember

From the bottles straight up
Tolerance levels made even alcoholics sit up
One more quicker than the next
Even the bottles screamed give it a rest

Addiction in an equation
Equalling to self esteem
Increase the valency
Equares to nullity

House of warmth
Turns into hell
Family at a dead end
Peace showing its stop sign

Rages and Rants daily occurence
Violence and defiance same direction
Tolerance grievance at the other end
Hindrance to prudence leading to indifference

Relationships gone south
Friendship loosing its clout
Engaged with liquor in a boxing bout
Getting tipsy every round you loose

Respect relationship friendship
Not even in the viscinity
Alone Addicted and miserable
No one left in the false fantasy

Reputation at home
Neighbourhood and work
Now a laughing stock to preach
Sympathetic towards the other members
No fault of theirs humiliate

Begging and stealing
No more wrong
Left guilt by the wayside
When the bottles lay bedside

Years gone by
Not aware of days that went by
Living in a timeless state
Till time ends living on the due date

Extinct to family
Extinct to friends
Extinct to colleagues
Extinct to self

No bigger crime
Family in the grind
For you to find
Ways to the deep end

Take the  first sip
Keys to hell unlocking its gates
Living in hell already the state
Hell learns a lesson by observing your fate