he's everything I've ever wanted
but I know one thing he is not-
when we kiss the only feeling I have is his lips
it's not like when I used to kiss you
my whole body would be overwhelmed I felt "love"
when I lay in his arms it's not the same
I remember I would lay on your chest
and I would just listen to your heart beat
I remember thinking it was the most beautiful thing in the world
that if the day ever came that your heart beat stopped I would be devastated
my whole world would crumble
with him I don't get that same feeling
And I fear that I never will again.