i don’t understand
where all of this pain is coming from

pain i can’t contain
flowing through me

pure hurt
i feel inside me

my heart is heavy
and i feel weighed down

having never cried over someone,
why now?
why you?

you, who has left me with nothing but pain
you, who has me feeling like refuse
you, who has shattered my worth

why are you so different?
moreover, why have i changed?

me, who knew my self worth
me, who knew the right thing to do
me, who was playing it safe

yet this happens
shattering every part of my being

i’ve left me feeling empty,
i’ve left me judging myself,
i’ve left me feeling hatred for myself,

you made me hate myself
you made me hurt myself

you make me wish i never met you.