the pain
you give
yourself
brings a
twisted relief

and you know
you shouldn't

because who in
there right mind
would do something like this, right?

but the matter of fact is
you aren't feeling right
you feel bruised
and fragile
and it's all to much
the world around you
is to ******* much

the world spins to fast
and it makes you so dizzy
that sometimes you
need to close your
eyes and catch your breath

you hear laughter of a child
a couple doors away
and the sun is
shining down on you
drinking a cup of tea
and you have someone
looking at you like you
are something
and maybe this day wouldn't be a bad day to die.