I am the Final Girl Tell Mom and Dad in Heaven that I Made It and it was epic
though sometimes I’m not so sure that it’s over
little rumblings appear in the distance peripheral glitches strange things follow me in daylight they seem to know who I am where I’m going but I am quick I have had the last laugh I was ‘the one that got away’
never was there a clean solid ending like after the high school prom never did I hold a sword in hand blood-splattered alone while the credits rolled in darkness but all the same I think that I’ve won but will I remain victorious?
I can still feel about me at times a certain dread that waits close at hand ready I know that I was a missed opportunity but there are advantages in being underestimated and of that I am thankful
sometimes dumb but deliberate flies think that they are spiders and old gray mice may fancy themselves feline how they linger, entranced dazzled by luminescence (how I shine!) and circle back again one time more when they shouldn’t they take too long and are lost, it works every time
I wanted you to know Mom and Dad in Heaven that my salvation was like a soft ripple gently pushed to shore safety of a sort after much ado fighting on all sides, relentless everyone a daemon maybe even you? can’t help but wonder... I was surprised to find out just how casual could be my destruction how assured how confident how very ordinary how little it takes to break a person I’ve seen it time and time again (why, life itself!)
But here I am calm yet concerned I will not babysit I will not enter that shack I will not stop for gas I will not drive shotgun I will not take a swim I will not ask for directions I will not spend the weekend at the cottage And I don’t want the doll Not that party Not that apartment Not that country road Not that doctor Not that friend Not that brother Not that lover Not that fool Not anyone
I will not _ I will not _ I will not __
I’ve locked the door upon myself and no phone will ring from within
Hey Mom and Dad in Heaven! I made it! I miss you guys! I am the Final Girl (and it was epic)