waking up today was always going to feel strange... i was lying in bed for an extra hour trying to cure the flu... i thought about how i was weaponized over the past five days... a walking tick-tock bomb count down... what's this variant? the omicron? we skipped a few Greek letters... i was going to do the usual chores around the house... oh man: but the muscles ache... i'm dizzy all the ****** time... let me regain my strength at the nadir... let me regain my strength when i'm weakest... tomorrow's shift out to be uber: gut (goot)... if China could play this game two years ago... why can't i play the same game? April-cometh flu is sort of abnormal... if China can play their little game... oh... generous this microcosm of my... lax: approach... it has to come as a reiteration: classical Darwinism... looking at nature... the sort of Darwinism that can't be incorporated and invigorate human psychology... humanism... everything that's not transcendental, philosophical... looking at nature... what a clarifying, cruel, *****... i like her already... only satisfies the strong... she satisfies earthquakes and other sort of calamities... it grins with sharp teeth in the dark... it scuttles among shadows and hazards with starved insects and hyenas... bless this dearest medium of realisation... in my weakest moment... i still have some words in me: thank god i'm keeping ingesting hallucinogenic mushrooms for the time when i'm diagnosed with dementia... prior to... wound: fester... let the sneeze, slob and thickening saliva in... come: the maggots... cleanse me... like in the movie Gladiator... where... the maggots are found to cleanse the wound... by only eating dead flesh... at my weakest... i'm at my strongest... super-spreader... no no... this is not how the game is going to go... i'm not giving up my freedom... no thank you... not for the past two years... my grandfather deserved a better funeral... i'm following his consolation: keep your heart small... keep your heart small... sure... with what i'm infected with.. for someone like me... it's sort of debilitating... to others who only digest t.v. entertainment: if must be almost death... imagine the hard-on of a man... who walks like a biological weapon... i already mentioned this to one spectator at a West Ham when he came to my defence and said: but he doesn't want to wear a face-mask... a niqab... next game? the rule was dropped... the argument was along the lines: but i have a deaf friend sitting next to me... he won't be able to lip-read... what the steward is saying... oh... not here... not now... i like to wait... i wait... i like waiting... i need to find my whereabouts... my coordinates... i'm like a director... i need to know who the actors are... who the extras are... who the technical people are... but of course i'm not important... isn't that the stressed message these days when there's the culture of: fame for merely being famous... the Thespian autocracy - which is... ha ha... sure... less shadow-prone: more shadowing-stealing equivalent to the Russian oligarchs... western Thespian autocracy is like-for-like equated with Russian oligarchs...
from an Iron Curtain to the Silicon Curtain... to... the Glittery Veneer... of "stars"... but i woke up and felt good lying in bed for an hour longer... i tuned in... oh... ****... right... Will Smith... in defence of a wife that has... literally no defence... no, no... i'm not going to be grilling the man... maybe that's why i decided to have *** with prostitutes... she keeps sending me selfies... kissing thin air and the eye of dajjal... i'm sick... like i said... i'm yet to reply... but she's a ******* and i'm not Richard Gere... and this is not: pretty woman... and there's no spending spree in clothes shops down Hollywood Boulevard...
how the lesson trickles down... **** me... if i'm only supposed marry a fertile gargoyle... so that... no man will touch her... and all she can do is pop out more ugly looking gargoyle offspring? message to my genes: *******... die off... don't buy into the psychological argument that counters the reality of Darwinism... the classical Darwinism of cruel: true: nature... the sort of Darwinism that Nazis teased... and could have got away with... if it wasn't for their ethnic focus on the Hebrews... they were so close... but i guess... project: resurrect Israel - alles gut... sacrifices had to be made...
why wouldn't be impossible for me to be with a woman... and how much different is it... when you sleep with a woman who you know to have multiple ****** partners... you wouldn't... going to a brothel, that you're sleeping with a *******? hey... she's the one sending you photographs of herself... she's the one allowing you to have unprotected *** with her... ******* into her...
oh man... Will Smith... what height? what low? nein nein! nein! we're doing Darwinism proper this time... no point masquerading with a psychologism of Darwinism... man can have his ontology: but man will never overpower nature: like that Crowded House song:
i'll be walking rot... i'm not going to topple the natural order of things... whoever is left standing: is left standing... the rest can be mauled... down... down.... down... nature is: indiscriminative... i'm walking, i'm standing... whoever is up to scratch... is... whoever isn't... isn't... i don't need any honey cuddling pillow talk *******... i've heard too much of that in the past two years... faking man overpowering nature: without actually being able to...
oh man... Will Smith though... why have i been seeing prostitutes for so long? what honour of a wife are we talking about? none... it's painful to watch... at least i know... the women i **** are bankrupt within the confines of everything that might be expected of me to take a stance of protection... i mean: i can't protect them... if they're already a *******... officially... what am i trying to keep? my income... my expenditure... hardly any mention of a relationship... because there isn't any...
i stroke my beard... i try to no choke on the joke... but let's be honest... Garry Glitter's song... Rock & Roll Part 2... that's a ******* given: thumps and thumbs up... can't argue with that me-lo-dy (m'eh-l'oh-d'ee)...
it's funny... not really... but funny nonetheless... it's called the joke of the waiting game... you wait... and wait... until you're dead... that's the whole joke... you're dead... you've been waiting: but actually not waiting... because... what you've actually been waiting for is... turning up dead... which is the joke... you're waiting for "something" as the world happens to your anticipated exercise of chaos... but you're not waiting for that... you're waiting for your own death... and that's a slow ******* beast to roll... but that's the joke... the world burns... becomes ultra-*******... but i'm not waiting for that... or: you're not... whatever... yeah... death's shy... it needs a pulse of: inspiration... a pulsating wand of invigoration!
oh man... this is really bad optics... lucky man type: and thank **** i'm not married or... if men at the top are being treated like tramps / trash... what are the men at the bottom supposed to expect? gargoyle brides with half-wit quasi-DNA offspring to boot? at least i can give the Chinese kudos when they mention attaching themselves to DNA-engineering... great! play god... figure out a way to be rid of these natural hindering plotlines of disease! personally... i like the Chinese application of Darwinism... it's mythically ****... it has nothing to do with the western take on Darwinism via psychology via humanism... it's an outright: ******* approach...
second thoughts on genetically engineering food... but... second thoughts on genetically engineering humans... it's like... you've discovered the power of the gods... it's a bit like refusing Prometheus... no fire for you! ******* retards... because... the cosmopolitan Moses' highest authority of the world: gravitates around the crucifix of "hey-Zeus"... ******* retardo grando! the emblem of man... ******... celebration of a torture mechanism is man's... pristine... revelation for the ages... to follow suite... RETARDS! sure... and where is Christianity most expansive if not in Africa?
i already made my sentiments true... the biggest troll in the history of the democratic history of hell... came... in the form of the lord of mosquitos... blood boiled until it became wine... wine over-boiled... then water that became wine... blah blah... 2000 years of the reign of hell... it's nice... but... even i have some reservations: too much of something that good is... not good enough... because... if you don't have any reservations in place... eh... the immediate loss of fun... to preserve... "something".