Addicted to Love She used to slowly caress my hand- She would send chills down my spine- We would indulge in white lines as ecstasy got us high- One journey of a heart established in her lies- In her eyes I could see the twisted world that she believed- So drunk on insecurities highly clouded by ****- This is the devil’s disease-It is the devil’s fortune and fame- In love with a substance-I became in love with her name- Thin haired needles puncture love to my veins- My heart would beat with tweak- To the rhythm of the dope game- The rhythm of the dope game- WAIT- What was all this ******* for? Saying you love me as I lay incoherent on the floor- The steamy smell of three and half turned to four makes way through my body escaping my pours- Till the core of my soul lays alone in its own cold- And what was all this for? It was a ***** stained love as glass pipes held dreams of hope- Torched lit fires turned ambition to smoke- LSD became creativity-till the pits of hell were roamed- And what was all this for? It was for love- It was for drugs- It was my only way to cope- Understand? Under gram erections stood alone penetrating holes I’ve never seen before- Moans of stupidity released thoughts I ignored- But I adored the feeling of evolution elevating me to heights un-soared- Where lands of all man reach limitations to explore- My body begging me to stop but my mind is begging me for more- Refugees and causalities lay naked on the shore-Track marks leak the scent of and all and out lost war- And I’m still not sure what all this was for- Maybe it was for the thrill- The thrill of submersing all my rotten thoughts that plague my good will- My will to live among humanity and grant myself the freedom to walk among all of G-d’s family- But tragedy strikes at the heart of the lost kind- Where bleeding bodies are buried by the sands of time- Where a generational cry turns to generational screams, where a generation in denial becomes generational fends- And bitterness soaks through her cream where lost visions of the future become a long distance dream- And the subdue substance that once claimed me now allow me rhymes of exploration,-exploring things I’ve never seen never dreamed never thought I’d ever be another statistical teen- But I’ve grown-I’ve grown for the ignorance-The ignorance of believing I can make sense of life and relevance-That the heaven sent failure no longer has remembrance and the continuous hell bent world that destroyed me now gives me a halo of sense and for the first time-things make sense! So I set myself forward down a road of reflection, reflecting on things I meet at my souls introspection-inspecting deep dark thoughts that beat my soul to redemption and I question- I question why I stand here ready to go hand to hand to prove I’m a man when all I really want to do is show her who the **** I am-but I can’t- So I close of my angels and reach for the devil within and its plaguing me why can’t G-d see that I don’t want to live in a dream-I just don’t want to be- Please- Allow me ease- As I dream of moments with my old love-with my old drugs-with my not giving a ****- Like why the **** should I care when no one else does- So instead of the drugs I will pick up a pen and write a rhtymatic flow about the places I’ve been-and now-the only addiction I have is writing my hymns- For the hell hath no fury for the devil within but in the end- Well in the end- She slowly starts caressing my hand again man-