to be disregarded
disgruntled & frustrated by unmade calls
that ultimately lead me to question it all
as to why rampant & random generosity
is nothing but disingenuous ideals of guilt
that you spilled milk without my knowledge
and I’m the one left to clean up the spill

if looks could ****
you’d be paying my bills
prior obligations that you made
are nothing but a rain check presaved
to confide in me for your uninvited needs
now you’re the one watering the seeds

a missed named compliment
that looking back I want to stomp all over it
nothing but a back up plan for every plan
that ever falls through
contemplating youth and underestimated souls
that break when they get old
that cry when they’re told lies
about how they make the world reach a new high

so overly tempted to say goodbye
to everyone I’ve ever come into contact with
those I used to know
broke my heart
reparations made
surgeries made that hang by stitch strings
cut and resewed to be made better
supplies that falters through my fingers
needles that ***** my skin
bandaid wounds and it seeps through

i get neglectful
but it just feels disrespectful
never needed those around me
but I know it’s because I’m lonely
i frequently doubt myself
confide in no one else
broken promises that are nothing but meaningless vows
you reap what you sow
so maybe you should just go.