I often wonder what causes the pains of the heart from love. Is that I am so close to bliss but not have it everyday? Is the longing of the heart just to be near the one you love? Maybe it's the resistance when being pulled in many directions. Or us that I'm so emerged in the depths of love, I can't see anything else. Is it that I just need to hear those three simple words, I love you? Is it that I miss the touch of her hand on my cheek as we kiss? Or the embrace that I miss? I often pounder statements I've spoken. Like I wish I could breath her in and never exhale. Is the fact I need her more than she needs me? It's been just a few hours since I spoke last but I desperately need to hear her voice. Is that I fail to love myself as much as I love her? Is it wondering what our future holds? Is it that I'm afraid and fail to be brave? I know I love, I just wonder why there's pain.
Dedicated to my love, Special K