It was a warm summer night, when I felt Heaven, your arms around me. It was a long journey until I found Heaven. The tolls of war had overtaken me in my mind. I was lost in reality, knowing no way turn. I found Heaven, when I met you, or at least a messenger from there. You brought peace where torment once lurked. The vision of you was delight to my eyes. I found comfort in the depths of your hazel eyes. I asked you then to have me to stay but it wasn't the appointed time. I left my world crashing, my health fading. I was unsure of what was ahold of me. Two months passed, every moment agony. I thought why would God bring me to a place of peace only to lead me away. Cancer, the scariest word this warrior has heard. I stumbled to call you. Fear crept in. I only thought I would see the promise, but not able to partake. I would surely die before I could return. But you heard my every words though drowned in tears. You gave me hope to fight, to overcome, and to prevail. I told my friends I was returning to the joy of my life. Where the red wing black beards flew freely from field to field, reminding me of the joyful youth. The path to Heaven were I walk everyday since my return. Knowing your near, all fears erased and failures paved the way to love. You've been beside in secret the whole way. Even now, no one knows of us and our love. Day by day, I feel Heaven coming even near when I'm beside my love forever.  They say that before death comes your life flashes before your eyes. I say I only hope I see all my days with flash before me. I've lived hell to many years without you. But it's what it took, to show me how to love and appreciate you. I know there are many journeys ahead of us even now. There's our home, the cabin, to build. The trails to walk hand in hand in our forest, on our land. Until the ground is beat down for your ancestors to see, the amazing gardens we've built. Oh the memories, we will make. Until one day, my body fades away and I sit and wait at the gate until you my love make your grand entrance to be by my side on the other side. Heaven always be with you, my Special K.

Forever loving you, My Beautiful Special K.