i spend every day and night wishing i could be 15 again

since then i been feeling like an intruding alien in

the body i call mine and the mind ive been sealed in

dropped every ride or die so i could heal again,

knowing **** well i was lying to myself and deceiving them

never knew why i wore disguises, 5 years keeping up appearances

every night, all the time, wishing i could disappear again

only girl i was myself with thinks im delirious

now its only me, i and myself hearing this

insincere and full of surprises, to everyone else im a comedian

and i still wanna ******* **** myself cuz existing is so tedious

and i still hide the fact that i sincerely wish

i could decisively stifle the incitement to act like a

******* chameleon