i am afraid, no matter how much i dream and try i am destined to walk the far, beaten path alone.
they say 'everyone finds love'
but i know that everyone around me will go on to create lives of their own, torn straight from a a magazine
and i will sit, watching from the window, unable to grow past the age of 15, when i thought i may have loved everyone i liked (but really just thought they were pretty)
they, the ones i love are destined for people who make them happy
written into their lives, is the one who loves them
i am happy, content to some extent,
but as i watch and hear them talk about how in love they are
the thorns of envy grow in my stomach poking, jabbing, digging at my heart at my mind.
i think, i want that for myself yet, (i am resigned to whatever this may be)
they are happy, and i am- content, and so be it.Β
i do not know much about the uncertain futureΒ
but. i know this:
i? i am destined to a house, far too large for the number of people in it (2)
where i will live, (or rather go through the motions of life)
with a man who, for the life of him, can not pronounce my name.