There was a time I wanted to live on the same street as you when we grew up
But I'm not sure where that dream ended up
You were my big sister and I was your parasite I guess
But you were the one ******* me dry, telling me to feel blessed
Said to count myself lucky that you didn't **** me in my sleep at night
And knowing you, I knew this was true, so I guess you're right
All I wanted was a big sister, but instead I got a monster
Who lives in the back of my head
It used to be loud, and then it got quiet
But now it is back
And this monster sounds just like you
I hate how it feels
To know that I gave everything for you
I shared a bedroom, tried to protect you, cheered for you
Prayed for you, cried for you, feared for you
Wanted you, needed you, thought of you

But now... it's different
Things are all different.
You never cared, never gave the same
And now I'm still here
Hating how I remember you.