...romanticize my relationships with people
because in my ringlorn disillusionment
my pallid impression of the world
isn't the epic, the quest, the legend
i wanted to manifest

but you? your quiet brand of suburbia
somehow made me feel like a hero of antiquity
ever-loving, ever-present, a rock:
the constant in an algebraic expression
the cad software that lived out my whims
the physics formula sheet, my failsafe safety net
a little of freud, novel and systematic
a little of kant, faithful and kind
the well-worn dog-eared comfort books that,
with increasing rarity, part the dust on
my nightstand beside hot caffeinated mugs

sometimes i feel the need to...
...tell you that in my heart,
you are not the mage, the warrior, the paladin
not the manic pixie dream girl, but the healer
who was always more and deserved to be
treated as such by this flawed protagonist

sometimes i feel the need to...
...say the wrong words, do the wrong things
for the right reasons:
steadfast and diligent,
you stubbornly remained
in spite of my shortcomings
a witness to my character growth
as i compiled my own
dictionary of obscure sorrows
embraced my own archetype

sometimes i feel the need to...
...tell you you are perfect as you are
pencil-wielding, scab-scratching,
violin-playing, head-patting,
bread-baking, sweater-donning
girl who dared to embark on an
adventure with this half-baked
cluelessly charming *******

to be sad is not to despair
but to feel the beauty of it all at once
our adventure may not be as grand
our hero's journey may not take us far
but it is precious nonetheless
we'll make it through somehow :)