i remember when someone kissed my hipbones last: it was years ago, in the dark. you don't know now how long it's lasted, like a disease eating away at the bone where the sweet warmth of kisses should be. i miss the way you pulled me to your core, yet your hands were hooks, puncturing me "catching me" like stealing a fish from the place where it is free, only to cut its head off, scale it, filet it, until it's easy to eat. i'm in a bed like a net that has protected me from falling into a canyon of fear, drowning in its tumultuous rivers which beat me against rocks. when i can sleep again maybe i'll find someone else to join me, someone who will let go when their kisses are dry.