I have started planning my death.
I have made my decision and I am starting to feel peace
I’ve never been able to make this decision because I have always been to afraid of messing up, or being in pain.
I have always been afraid of the act of it.
But it’s time.
I just have to do it.

It won’t be today
It won’t be tomorrow
In a few months maybe
I will pick a special day

I think I will fly somewhere beautiful
Find the tallest building
And step off.

I will write one letter to everyone and talk in detail why I have chose to do this and apologize.
Then I will have letters for everyone I love individually.
On my bed I will lay out all my paintings and things I want to give away to specific people.
I will label what needs to be done with all my possessions.
I will save as much money as I can and pay off as much debt as I can.
I will try to leave money for my mom.

I have a lot to do.
This is the first time I’m looking forward to anything in a very long time.

It’s almost time to go.