What good is it to ask for help when your mind is already made. Involving others in some sick and twisted game. You hurt yourself and in the process you've hurten others too. And not just someone passing by, someone close to you.
You know they care and want to help, they plead for you to stop. And so you postpone the task for a while. You two start to talk About how you hurt and you start to share those bottled up feelings with someone who cares. But it doesn't help cause you're still hurt and you are to blame. It was you after all who wanted to feel more pain.
I've given up with calling out and asking you for help. Maybe if I was stronger for you, you'd be more open yourself. I hate knowing your hurting and not being able to give advice to you. You help me through my problems but there's never anything I can do. So to fix this, maybe make it easier on your part, I'll keep my mouth shut. I'd prefer if we both had each other, but I have no control over that.
Guess I'll just go back to feeling like **** and pretending like I'm not upset. I may feel like crap but if no one can tell, I can say I'm a good actress